My Story

My life completely fell apart about two years ago. I reached an ultimate low and was about to be taken to new depths. I call it the “dark night of my soul”.

My Story

My life completely fell apart about two years ago. I reached an ultimate low and was about to be taken to new depths. I call it the “dark night of my soul”.

My Story

My life completely fell apart about two years ago. I reached an ultimate low and was about to be taken to new depths. I call it the “dark night of my soul”.

I fell head over heels for this guy in an instant. We began dating and things were going great – until I began noticing major red flags. They were subtle at first, but eventually became big lies. After confronting him, he stopped seeing me as much, stopped calling, and began making excuses. He didn’t give any reason for his sudden change in behavior and nothing was adding up. But I carried on– thinking it was going to be the last time. I was denying the tears and kept thinking his intentions were pure. He showered me with fake love and I believed it.

Next thing I know I am in the ER, in shock, with blood everywhere. The horrid flashbacks replayed in my mind. I thought I was waking up from a nightmare, but it was my reality. My arms were bruised, my body was aching, and I almost lost my hand from trying to defend myself. What would I do without a functioning hand? At this point I was physically, mentally and emotionally depleted.

On the outside, I seemed fine. But on the inside, I was dying a slow and miserable death. I was sad and cried all the time, slept all day and avoided people and situations. Some common emotions were mental exhaustion and feeling extremely overwhelmed.  I had to start living in isolation, wanting to disappear. Everything was falling apart right before my eyes!

I couldn’t do much while recovering from surgery, so I lost work, I lost money and I pretty much lost myself. I saw a psychologist and a psychiatrist, who confirmed I was being abused by a narcissist and that I had to get out right away. Diagnosed with severe anxiety, depression, and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), I was prescribed antidepressants, but the pills didn’t help at all. In fact, I got worse.

Did anyone understand what it felt like to be abused? To be stripped of one’s vital essence – of their life energy supply? To have undergone trauma with horrible underlying effects to the mind, body and soul? I felt like I couldn’t even recognize who I was anymore. I gave up. “Take me,” I thought. Nothing could be worse than the life I was given.

One night I lay in my bed, tired of suffering and feeling lost– about to give up on everything. “Why me?” I raged. “Nobody understands” I thought. Just as I was about to give up on life as I knew it, I began to sense a mystifying presence. I suddenly saw bright flashes of light above my head followed by feelings of euphoria. I began weeping, but they were tears of joy. I could now see everything clearly and it all made sense. I was in shock, trying to calm myself down as my whole life flashed before me starting from childhood. I felt like I was touched by angels who gave me life again! I tried to wrap my head around it all. But it wasn’t so easy at first, especially not on my own. That enticing night set me off on this journey to research what I had experienced and as I began to explore, references such as “kundalini awakening”, “spirituality” and “enlightenment” came up. I began to evaluate and reflect.

I soon realized that I was living my life completely wrong and that if this did not change my direction, I would have ended up much worse! I wasn’t living in alignment with my body, mind and soul. I was too busy living someone else’s life, doing what my parents thought was best, or listening to my friends’ advice and not my very own inner guidance. My intuition was guiding my energy all along to make the best choices, but I never listened. I was ignoring my soul and disbelieving myself!

It wasn’t until I got in touch with a Spiritual Advisor that I learned everything I needed to know about spiritual awakening, how to align and how to get through it while balancing the mind, body and soul. I heard about spirituality before, but never knew what it would be like to follow through and heal. Once my coach worked with me, they helped me go through my awakening effectively and I can’t believe the magic that I was introduced to. Why didn’t I know this earlier?! The Spiritual Advisor helped me stay in continuous alignment with my highest self and for my highest good. They kept me aware of my major energy vortexes and chakras. They helped me become connected to the divine source energy that quantum entangles everything else on this planet

I used to fear all the signs I received from the universe. My coach helped me lose the fear and help me answer my soul’s true calling. Once I began living by way of my soul, I began feeling lighter, happier and began attracting things that I have always desired starting with situations going in my favor 100% of the time. All my relationships improved, and I began feeling abundantly loved, even by random strangers, thanks to my purified aura. We also worked on reprogramming my mind so that I would no longer suffer from depression, anxiety or PTSD. I am proud to say I holistically healed my trauma without popping any synthetic pills and getting addicted to them.

I can now confidently say that I am in love with myself. I am connected to the universal consciousness and led by divine guidance to help others who may be spiritually awakening or who have gone through mental health issues because of trauma, suffering or abuse. I used these experiences to become a Spiritual Advisor myself. I am here to help you if you are suffering or feeling lost and unbalanced and I am here to help turn your pain into power and awaken all that is within!

Sapna Desai - The Spiritual Advisor

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